Sleeping_Butterflies

this is a line from Benjamin Button movie:

For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.

i hope it’s never too late for me…i hope time will come that i will be heard by that person whom i really wanna say sorry to. i hope time will come that he’d see me and talk to me and hear me out. i really hope i could start all over again and put the horrible things behind me.

I’ve been meaning to post a blog during my break up period but I decided not to. I thought it was best for me to heal first and then write.

So now I am here typing away on a very boring summer day here in the office.

I broke up with my bf last Feb 18. I think it was the hardest decision I had to make. But I prayed for this a long time ago. I prayed that God will give me courage and clear my mind before I do this so there wont be turning back. I am not in to breaking up for a few weeks and then get back together so I need to be sure and be ready.

On Feb. 17, God put me into a situation where I need to decide whether to stay or leave the one-year relationship with Roy–my longest so far. That instance was so painful, so painful that I felt so numb. I was in Megamall sitting and staring blankly. I dont feel anything at all until my friend came to pick me up and that’s the forst time I cried. I never thought it can be that painful. I thought my heart literally and physically broke. But thanks to my friend Kris, she was there for me when I could barely stand on my feet, as in. I almost stumble in front of so many people.

It was a lot harder to tell Roy that we are over. It was not easy to tell him to pack his things and leave my house. So there it is. It’s officially over.

I never thought I’d get through this. I’d never thought I’d be ok this soon. I thought it will take me forever to mend my bruised heart. Yes I was not broken hearted, I was just bruised. But it doesnt mean I didnt love him. For Christ sake I loved that guy so much! I loved hik too much that I forgot to love myself. Now that the bruises are healing I would like to take this chance to thank my friends.

Thnak you Manga and Osbi for being there on that day I had to face Roy and claim my freedom back.

Thank you Kris, Abbey, Annah, Manette, Ces, Joanne, George and Manu for patiently being my friend.

Thank you Lanie and Khen for the advices on how to move on.

Thank you Karen for believing in me, believing that I’ll be ok sooner that I can imagine.

And to my family thank you for the support and love.

Thank you Philip for making me smile everyday.

Now I am better, tanned and smiling. And looking forward to a new love. My bruised heart is healing perfectly.

Here’s my break up song… I listen to this everytime I feel that the sadness is coming.

"Bruised But Not Broken"

Been alot that I’ve been through
I cried a tear a time or two
Baby, you know I cried some over you, yeah
Had my heart kicked to the ground
Love ripped me up and tore me down, baby

But that ain’t enough to break me
Cuz I’ll rise above it
And I’ll pick myself up
And I’ll dust the pain off my heart

[CHORUS]
And I’ll be alright
And I’ll love again
And the wounds will mend
I’m bruised but not broken
And the pain will fade
I’ll get back on my feet
It’s not the end of me
My heart is still open
I’m bruised but not broken

Been alot of tears stained nights
I thought the tears were here for life, baby
The hurt came on and held on tight, yeah
Took a chance, I took a fall
Love broke my heart and shattered all my dreams
But I won’t be down on my knees
Cuz I’ll rise above it
And I’ll pick myself up
And I’ll shake the rain out of my heart

[CHORUS]
And I’ll be alright
And I’ll love again
And the wounds will mend
I’m bruised but not broken
And the pain will fade
I’ll get back on my feet
It’s not the end of me
My heart is still open
I’m bruised but not broken

Gonna pick my heart up
Take my life back
Shake the hurt away
Pull myself together, put the pieces back in place
I learned love’s so hard
Love left my soul scarred
I was shattered inside

[CHORUS]
And I’ll be alright
And I’ll love again
And the wounds will mend
I’m bruised but not broken
And the pain will fade
I’ll get back on my feet
It’s not the end of me
My heart is still open
I’m bruised but not broken

Love and Sacrifices

When my friends ask me if I love Roy I used to answer " I dont know!" and they’d go wild. Now I believe things really change. Nothing is stuck in one point… one way or another. Try to ask me now if I love Roy(my bf), my answer would be a big YES with a blush(if I ever blush).

I used to ask my friends how would I know if I love this person? They’d say that if you’re willing to sacrifice a lot without knowing that you are already sacrificing a lot. I know this is just one but still knowing how selfish and bitchy I am sacrifice is a big thing.

Now that my first ever anniversary is coming up in a few days I started contemplating the last 11 months and 20ish days, what happened to me.

I met this guy in a very unusual manner and then test my limits if I can love this guy and voila… here I am. The past few months is very unusual for me. Knowing me the girl who’s longest relationship only lasted for 7 months, now I am going to celebrate my first anniv. This relationship tested my capacity to love someone and be selfless. I accepted and loved this guy for who he is in the past and who is he now. It wasnt a smooth relationship at all. My friends can attest to that. Some would suggest a break up. Some would say "mai this is not you…".  Some even said "Mai ang bobo mo!". With all that, I respect their love and care for me. I understand they just want the best for me and not to see me hurt.

But I chose to stay and fight for him. I chose to embrace his past, his flaws his tantrums and everything that is good and bad in him. If you ask me why and till when, I’d say hanggang kaya ko pa sya mahalin.

To my friends, who have been enduring all my drama, I thank you all.

forwared by a friend:

An Open Advice About Career Decisions

   Several of my staff has approached me lately about their career
   decisions. I really appreciate my staff opening up to me. It is quite
   reassuring to know that they’re still having second thoughts about
   leaving. Here is part of the email I sent to a "confused" staff:

   I have worked for more than 5 companies already so I guess you might be
   correct in saying I have had considerable experience about leaving and
   moving on. I will not stop you nor tell you to leave, though of course
   it will be better if you stay. In any career decision, leaving or
   staying I believe, based from my personal experiences and as an HR
   professional, should only be done for the right reasons.

   For one, you shouldn’t leave because you don’t like several people in
   the company, nor should you stay because of the friends you have made
   here. At the end of the day, it is your life. Your friends or "enemies"
   should not make or break your career. If you let them be the deciding
   factor, then maybe you should think twice. You are the craftsman of your
   fate and the captain of your ship. Captain Hook shouldn’t be one of your
   worries!

   Do not leave nor stay because of the "brand" of your company*. If that
   was the case, I would have rushed off and sign my JO in "C"! Ask
   yourself whether you want to be a big fish in a small pond or a small
   fish in a bigger pond. Know your priorities. Only you can answer that.

   Do not leave the company because you’re so damn frustrated about the
   way things are being run, or stay because you have this "messianic
   complex" that you can change things overnight. Be realistic about the
   things. Learn to accept that ther is no perfect company. Be accepting
   that change is a slow and painful process at times and be thankful that
   you realize and act on things that can be changed and improved.
   Definitely, do not leave or stay just because your parents or families
   want you to. I know I am advocating obedience to parents but again, we
   are talking about YOUR career. But learn to value their wisdom and
   discern well.

   Money isn’t everything. The package being offered now might be better
   but look at the long-term prospects. Do not leave or stay just solely
   for the compensation package. Look for growth prospects and review
   their career plans for you. Your immediate gains today might actually be
   a loss a few years from now if you do the Math.

   Boredom is another challenge all professionals are faced with during
   lull periods in their career. Do not leave because you have become so
   bored with your job. Do not stay either because you want things as they
   are. Change is ineveitable in any organization. Talk to your boss. Ask
   for more responsibilities or other tasks if you are bored. Enroll in a
   special course. If you’re satisfied with the status quo and is just
   waiting for retirement hoping things will stay the same, you’re in for a
   big disappointment - either you will be forced to change or you will be
   forced to leave. Be ready before that time comes. Boredom or complacency
   is a perennial battle most professionals have to deal with. Arm yourself
   with creativity everyday.

   Tonight I suggest you rest well. Sit still and listen to what He is
   saying. PRAY. I have always made my career decisions through His
   guidance. He was and still is my Career Adviser/Talent Manager. Your
   work, our work, is a vocation. He knows us more than we know ourselves
   so trust Him for whatever plans He has for you. You can never go wrong.

   And remember: Use your head to get to the top. But use your heart to
   stay.

   Good day

Preston Burke(Greys Anatomy):(while operating a heart)

Cristina, i could promise to hold you, and to cherish you, i can promise to be there in sickness and in health, I could say till death do us part. but I won’t. Those vows, are for optimistic couples, the ones full of hope. And I do not stand here on my wedding day optimistic or full of hope. I am not optimistic, I am not hopeful; I am sure. I am steady. and I know. I am a heart man- i take them apart, i put them back together, I hold them in my hands. I, am a heart man. so this I am sure, you are my partner, my lover, my very best friend. my heart, MY heart beats for you. and on this day, the day of our wedding, i promise you this: i promise to lay my heart in the palm of your hands. i promise you, me.

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Cinemalaya 2007
Philippine Independent Film Festival

Start:       Jul 20, ‘07
End:       Jul 29, ‘07
Location:       Cultural Center of the Philippines, Roxas Blvd., Pasay City


20 to 29 July 2007
Cultural Center of the Philippines

Festival Schedule

SPECIAL EVENTS

Cinemalaya 2007 Awards Night
(Open to the Public)
Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo 07:00 PM 29 Jul/Sun

The Cinemalaya Film Congress
Theme: Harnessing Technology for Artistic Expression
Day 1 Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino 24 Jul/Tue 8AM to 5PM
Day 2 Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino 25 Jul/Wed 9AM to 5PM

Cinemalaya 2007 Opening Ceremonies
Special Screening: FOSTER CHILD by Brillante Mendoza
Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo 07:00 PM 20 Jul/Fri

The Cinemalaya Sine Taktakans
Meet the Cinemalaya 2007 Filmmakers Forum
(Free Admission)
Day 1 Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute 27 Jul/Fri 1PM to 5PM
Day 2 Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute 28 Jul/Sat 1PM to 5PM

COMPETITION SCREENINGS

The Cinemalaya 2007 Full-Lengths

ENDO by Jade Castro
21 Jul/Sat 09:00 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute
22 Jul/Sun 03:30 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
24 Jul/Tue 06:15 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
25 Jul/Wed 09:00 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
26 Jul/Thu 12:45 PM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino
27 Jul/Fri 12:45 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
28 Jul/Sat 09:00 PM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino

GULONG by Sockie Fernandez
21 Jul/Sat 06:15 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
22 Jul/Sun 12:45 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
24 Jul/Tue 09:00 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute
25 Jul/Wed 06:15 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
26 Jul/Thu 10:00 AM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino
27 Jul/Fri 03:30 PM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino
28 Jul/Sat 10:00 AM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo

KADIN by Adolf Alix Jr.
21 Jul/Sat 06:15 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
22 Jul/Sun 10:00 AM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino
24 Jul/Tue 06:15 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute
25 Jul/Wed 10:00 AM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
26 Jul/Thu 03:30 PM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino
27 Jul/Fri 03:30 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
28 Jul/Sat 06:15 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining

LIGAW LIHAM by Jay Abello
21 Jul/Sat 09:00 PM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino
22 Jul/Sun 06:15 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute
24 Jul/Tue 10:00 AM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
25 Jul/Wed 06:15 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
26 Jul/Thu 06:15 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
27 Jul/Fri 10:00 AM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino
28 Jul/Sat 03:30 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo

PISAY by Auraeus Solito
21 Jul/Sat 03:30 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
22 Jul/Sun 09:00 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
24 Jul/Tue 09:00 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
25 Jul/Wed 09:00 PM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino
26 Jul/Thu 06:15 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute
27 Jul/Fri 10:00 AM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
28 Jul/Sat 03:30 PM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino

SINUNGALING NA BUWAN by Eduardo Lejano Jr.
21 Jul/Sat 03:30 PM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino
22 Jul/Sun 06:15 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
24 Jul/Tue 12:45 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
25 Jul/Wed 09:00 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute
26 Jul/Thu 09:00 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
27 Jul/Fri 12:45 PM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino
28 Jul/Sat 12:45 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo

STILL LIFE by Katski Flores
21 Jul/Sat 12:45 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
22 Jul/Sun 03:30 PM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino
24 Jul/Tue 06:15 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
25 Jul/Wed 09:00 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
26 Jul/Thu 03:30 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
27 Jul/Fri 06:15 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute
28 Jul/Sat 12:45 PM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino

TRIBU by Jim Libiran
21 Jul/Sat 10:00 AM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino
22 Jul/Sun 06:15 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
24 Jul/Tue 09:00 PM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino
25 Jul/Wed 03:30 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
26 Jul/Thu 06:15 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
27 Jul/Fri 09:00 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
28 Jul/Sat 09:00 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute

TUKSO by Dennis Marasigan
21 Jul/Sat 06:15 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute
22 Jul/Sun 09:00 PM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino
24 Jul/Tue 03:30 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
26 Jul/Thu 12:45 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
27 Jul/Fri 06:15 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
28 Jul/Sat 09:00 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
29 Jul/Sun 12:45 PM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino

The Cinemalaya 2007 Shorts

Shorts Programme A:
DOBLE
VISTA (Nisha Alicer, Nix Lañas, Caren Crisologo), MISTERYO SA HAPIS
(Mark DelaCruz), NINEBALL (Enrico Aragon), ROLYO (Alvin B. Yapan),
TAGAPAGLIGTAS (Ma. Solita F. Garcia)
21 Jul/Sat 09:00 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
22 Jul/Sun 12:45 PM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino
24 Jul/Tue 09:00 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
25 Jul/Wed 12:45 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
27 Jul/Fri 06:15 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
27 Jul/Fri 09:00 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute
28 Jul/Sat 10:00 AM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino

Shorts Programme B:
DUROG
(Tara Illenberger), GABON (Emmanuel DelaCruz), LIWANAG SA DILIM
(Lawrence Fajardo), MAIKLING KWENTO (Hubert Tibi), TONI (Vic Acedillo
Jr.)
21 Jul/Sat 12:45 PM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino
21 Jul/Sat 09:00 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
22 Jul/Sun 09:00 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
26 Jul/Thu 10:00 AM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
26 Jul/Thu 09:00 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute
28 Jul/Sat 06:15 PM Venue 1 - CCP Main Theatre / Tanghalang Nicanor Abelardo
29 Jul/Sun 10:00 AM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino

EXHIBITION SCREENINGS

The Cinemalaya 2007 World Premieres

BARAKO by Manolito Sulit
Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde 09:00 PM 24 Jul/Tue

CURE FOR BOREDOM by Ato Bautista
Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino 06:15 PM 25 Jul/Wed

HANGGANG DITO NA LAMANG AT MARAMING SALAMAT
by Lino Tañada
Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino 06:15 PM 22 Jul/Sun

HAW-ANG by Bong Ramos
Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino 06:15 PM 26 Jul/Thu

HILO by JP Carpio
Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde 09:00 PM 25 Jul/Wed

KISS MEEH, MANANANGGAL ME! By Cris Pablo
Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino 09:00 PM 26 Jul/Thu

SAPI by Arnold Argaño
Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino 09:00 PM 27 Jul/Fri

SIGNOS by Aloy Adlawan
Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino 06:15 PM 24 Jul/Tue

WEN TIMAWA MEETS DELGADO by Rey Gilbraltar
Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino 06:15 PM 21 Jul/Sat

TBC: BALIKBAYAN BOX by Mes Guzman
Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino 06:15 PM 28 Jul/Sat

The Cinemalaya 2005 Films

ANG PAGDADALAGA NI MAXIMO OLIVEROS
by Auraeus Solito & Michiko Yamamoto
21 Jul/Sat 12:45 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde
26 Jul/Thu 03:30 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining

BARYOKE by Ron Bryant
23 Jul/Mon 03:30 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall
28 Jul/Sat 10:00 AM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining

BIG TIME by Mario Cornejo & Monster Jimenez
21 Jul/Sat 03:30 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
25 Jul/Wed 03:30 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall

ICU BED #7 by Rica Arevalo
21 Jul/Sat 12:45 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute
26 Jul/Thu 12:45 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

ISNATS by Mike Dagnalan & Jun Aves
24 Jul/Tue 12:45 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute
28 Jul/Sat 12:45 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

LASPONGGOLS by Sigfried Barros Sanchez
24 Jul/Tue 10:00 AM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
28 Jul/Sat 12:45 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining

PEPOT ARTISTA by Clodualdo del Mundo Jr.
21 Jul/Sat 10:00 AM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
26 Jul/Thu 12:45 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining

ROOM BOY by Alfred Aloysius Adlawan
24 Jul/Tue 03:30 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
27 Jul/Fri 03:30 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall

SARONG BANGGI by Emman dela Cruz
24 Jul/Tue 12:45 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde
28 Jul/Sat 03:30 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining

The Cinemalaya 2006 Films

ANG HULING ARAW NG LINGGO by Nick Olanka
25 Jul/Wed 10:00 AM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
29 Jul/Sun 12:45 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining

BATAD: SA PAANG PALAY by Benji Garcia
22 Jul/Sun 10:00 AM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
27 Jul/Fri 12:45 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining

DONSOL by Adolfo B. Alix Jr.
25 Jul/Wed 12:45 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde
29 Jul/Sun 03:30 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining

IN DA RED KORNER by Dado Lumibao
25 Jul/Wed 03:30 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
28 Jul/Sat 03:30 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall

MUDRAKS by Arah Jell Badayos & Margaret Guzman
25 Jul/Wed 12:45 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute
29 Jul/Sun 12:45 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

ROTONDA by Ron Bryant
22 Jul/Sun 12:45 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde
27 Jul/Fri 03:30 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining

SAAN NAGTATAGO SI HAPPINESS
by Florida Bautista & Real Florido
24 Jul/Tue 03:30 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall
29 Jul/Sun 10:00 AM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining

TULAD NG DATI by Michael Sandejas
22 Jul/Sun 03:30 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
26 Jul/Thu 03:30 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall

The Cinemalaya 2005 & 2006 Shorts

Cinemalaya
2005 Shorts: ALIMUOM (Rommel “Milo” Tolentino), BABAE (Sigrid
Bernardo), BLOODBANK (Pam Miras), KULTADO (Lawrence Fajardo), MANSYON
(Joel Ruiz), PANAGINIPAN (Anna Isabelle Matutina)
21 Jul/Sat 03:30 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall
26 Jul/Thu 10:00 AM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining

Cinemalaya
2006 Shorts A: 10:25 NG GABI (Reggie Gulle), GEE-GEE AT WATERINA (J.
Dennis C. Teodosio), KWARTO (Jose Maria Emmanuel C. Taylo), LABADA (Raz
DelaTorre), NO PASSPORT NEEDED (Pepe Diokno)
22 Jul/Sun 12:45 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute
27 Jul/Fri 12:45 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

Cinemalaya
2006 Shorts B: ORASYON (Rommel “Milo” Tolentino), PARANG PELIKULA
(Hubert Tibi), PUTOT (Jeck Cogama), PUWANG (Anna Isabelle Matutina), SA
SILAW (Reinzi L. Balao)
22 Jul/Sun 03:30 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall
27 Jul/Fri 10:00 AM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining

More Exhibition Screenings

ANAK NG TINAPA by Jon Red
21 Jul/Sat 10:00 AM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

ANG ANAK NI BROCKA by Sigfried Barros Sanchez
26 Jul/Thu 10:00 AM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

ANG DAAN PATUNGONG KALIMUGTONG by Mes Guzman
21 Jul/Sat 06:15 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde
27 Jul/Fri 09:00 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining

ANG HULING BALYAN NG BUHI by Sherad Anthony Sanchez
27 Jul/Fri 03:30 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde
28 Jul/Sat 12:45 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall

ASTIG by Jon Red
23 Jul/Mon 09:00 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall

BALAY DAKU by JP Carpio
22 Jul/Sun 09:00 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall

BALIW by Redd Ochoa
23 Jul/Mon 12:45 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall
27 Jul/Fri 09:00 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

BLACKOUT by Ato Bautista
22 Jul/Sun 06:15 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde
28 Jul/Sat 03:30 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

CARE HOME by Suzett Ranillo
22 Jul/Sun 03:30 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute
24 Jul/Tue 09:00 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall

CAVITE by Neil Dela Llana & Ian Gamazon
24 Jul/Tue 06:15 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall

COMPOUND by Will Fredo
21 Jul/Sat 03:30 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute
26 Jul/Thu 09:00 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall

DILIM by Topel Lee
21 Jul/Sat 03:30 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

DILIMAN by Mes Guzman
25 Jul/Wed 06:15 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute

FACES OF LOVE by Eddie Romero
26 Jul/Thu 12:45 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute
27 Jul/Fri 12:45 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall

HEREMIAS (Unang Aklat: Ang Alamat Ng Princesang Bayawak)
by Lav Diaz ( 9AM to 6PM 9 hours - counts as one programme)
29 Jul/Sun 9:00 AM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute

ILUSYON by Paolo Villaluna & Ellen Ramos
26 Jul/Thu 06:15 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall

IMAHE NASYON
by
Lav Diaz (“Nang Matapos Ang Ulan”), Raymond Red (“Mistulang Kamera
Obskura”) Roxlee (“La Pula”), Neil Daza (“Biyaheng Edsa”) Ellen Ramos
(“Speci Men”), Robert Quebral (“Barado”), Paolo Villaluna, (“One Shot”)
Mes De Guzman (“Tsinelas”), Topel Lee (“Ang Manunulat”), Emmanuel dela
Cruz (“Imagining Edsa”), Lyle Sacris (“Dibuho”) Milo Alto Paz
(“Lugaw”), RA Rivera (“Public Service Announcement”), Sigfreid
Barros-Sanchez (“Aksyon Star”), Tad Ermitaño (“Local Unit”), Ogi
Sugatan (“5 Minutes”), Poklong Anading (“Between Intersection”), EJ
Salcedo (“Talahib”), Dennis Empalmado (“Bwahaha”) and Yeye Calderon
(“Silid”).
d/w The IMAHE NASYON Behind The Scenes by Jon Red
(counts as one programme)
27 Jul/Fri 06:15 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall

INANG YAYA by Pablo Biglang-Awa & Veronica Velasco
25 Jul/Wed 03:30 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute

KALELDO by Brillante Mendoza
22 Jul/Sun 06:15 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall
26 Jul/Thu 09:00 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining

KUBRADOR by Jeffrey Jeturian
21 Jul/Sat 09:00 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde
26 Jul/Thu 06:15 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde
29 Jul/Sun 03:30 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

LA VISA LOCA by Mark Meily
24 Jul/Tue 03:30 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute

LAMBANOG by Paolo Herras
25 Jul/Wed 10:00 AM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute

MANORO by Brillante Mendoza
24 Jul/Tue 06:15 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde
28 Jul/Sat 09:00 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining

MASAHISTA by Brillante Mendoza
26 Jul/Thu 03:30 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute

METLOGS by Cris Pablo
24 Jul/Tue 12:45 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
27 Jul/Fri 10:00 AM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

MGA PUSANG GALA by Ellen Ongkeko (TBC)
22 Jul/Sun 10:00 AM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute

NASAAN SI FRANCIS? by Gabby Fernandez
22 Jul/Sun 09:00 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute
25 Jul/Wed 06:15 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

NUMBALIKDIWA by Bobby Bonifacio
21 Jul/Sat 09:00 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall
27 Jul/Fri 06:15 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

PANDANGGO by Dennis Empalmado & Wilfred Galila
22 Jul/Sun 12:45 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall
25 Jul/Wed 10:00 AM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

PINOY BLONDE by Peque Gallaga
21 Jul/Sat 10:00 AM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute

RAKET NI NANAY by Lawrence Fajardo
25 Jul/Wed 12:45 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
29 Jul/Sun 10:00 AM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

REKADOS by Paolo Herras
22 Jul/Sun 10:00 AM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde
24 Jul/Tue 12:45 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall

ROME & JULIET by Connie S.A. Macatuno
22 Jul/Sun 12:45 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
25 Jul/Wed 03:30 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

RUPTURA by Ron Bryant
24 Jul/Tue 10:00 AM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute

SA AKING PAGKAKAGISING MULA SA KAMULATAN
by Ato Bautista
23 Jul/Mon 06:15 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall

SA ILALIM NG COGON by Rico Ilarde
21 Jul/Sat 06:15 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall
26 Jul/Thu 03:30 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

SA NORTH DIVERSION ROAD by Dennis Marasigan
24 Jul/Tue 03:30 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

SANDALANG BAHAY by Denisa Reyes & Mark Gary
28 Jul/Sat 10:00 AM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

SEROKS by Eduardo Lejano Jr.
22 Jul/Sun 03:30 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde
26 Jul/Thu 12:45 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall

SITAK by Liza Cornejo
24 Jul/Tue 10:00 AM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

SQUATTER PUNK by Khavn (with a live band)
28 Jul/Sat 06:15 PM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute

STILL LIVES by Jon Red
25 Jul/Wed 12:45 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall

STOCK ROOM by Hero Angeles
21 Jul/Sat 12:45 PM Venue 4 - CCP MKP Hall / Bulwagang Alagad Ng Sining
28 Jul/Sat 06:15 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

TODO TODO TEROS by John Torres
21 Jul/Sat 12:45 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall
26 Jul/Thu 09:00 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

TRABAHO by Ned Trespeces
22 Jul/Sun 09:00 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde
26 Jul/Thu 10:00 AM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute

TULI by Auraeus Solito
25 Jul/Wed 09:00 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall

UPOS by Jose Maria Emmanuel C. Taylo
25 Jul/Wed 06:15 PM Venue 6 - CCP Silangan Hall

Special Screenings

BEST OF GAWAD 2007 A
(Titles to Follow)
27 Jul/Fri 10:00 AM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute

BEST OF GAWAD 2007 B
(Titles to Follow)
28 Jul/Sat 10:00 AM Venue 5 - CCP Tanghalang Huseng Batute

CINEMALAYA 2007 AUDIENCE CHOICE Screening
27 Jul/Fri 06:15 PM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino

(TBC Reserved for Exhibition)
28 Jul/Sat 09:00 PM Venue 3 - CCP Dream Theatre / Tanghalang Manuel Conde

(TBC Reserved for Extra Screening )
29 Jul/Sun 03:30 PM Venue 2 - CCP Little Theatre / Tanghalang Aurelio Tolentino

Kindly note that screening schedules may be subject to change.

Start:	Jun 28, ‘07 1:00p
End:	Jul 8, ‘07
Location:	CCP

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Start:    Jun 28, ‘07
End:    Jul 8, ‘07
Location:    Cultural Center of the Philippines, Roxas Blvd., Pasay City
THIRD SERVING OF THE VIRGIN LABFEST

VIRGIN
LABFEST 3, the year’s most anticipated festival of new and untried,
untested, unpublished and unstaged plays, runs from June 28 until July
8 at the Cultural Center of the Philippines. This year, the festival
features the premiere of eighteen (18) new one-act plays plus staged
readings of full-length plays, directed and acted by artists from some
of the country’s most respected performing companies.

Gwen Stefani’s 4 In The Morning Lyrics 

Wakin up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had it’s say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts
when I think,
when I let it sink in
It’s all over me
I’m lying here in the dark
Watchin you sleep, it hurts a lot

[Bridge]
And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything
Nothing less ’cause you know I give you all of me

[Chorus]
I give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the morning and the tears are pouring
And I wanna make it worth the fight

What have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come on do it right

All I wanted was to know I’m safe
Don’t wanna lose the love I found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don’t let me down

It’s not fair, how you are
I can’t be complete, can you give me more

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love for me
We cant escape the love
Give me everything that you have

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

from my klasmeyt’s blog  hiniram ko…

11 Reasons Bakit Single ang Status Mo

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PARTNERS AND MARRIAGE

By Eduardo Jose E. Calasanz

I have never met a man who didn’t want to be loved. But I have seldom met a man who didn’t fear marriage. Something about the closure seems constricting, not enabling. Marriage seems easier to understand for what it cuts out of our lives than for what it makes possible within our lives.

When I was younger this fear immobilized me. I did not want to make a mistake. I saw my friends get married for reasons of social acceptability, or sexual fever, or just because they thought it was the logical thing to do. Then I watched, as they and their partners became embittered and petty in their dealings with each other. I looked at older couples and saw, at best, mutual toleration of each other. I imagined a lifetime of loveless nights and bickering days and could not imagine subjecting myself or someone else to such a fate.

And yet, on rare occasions, I would see old couples who somehow seemed to glow in each other’s presence. They seemed really in love, not just dependent upon each other and tolerant of each other’s foibles.

It was an astounding sight, and it seemed impossible. How, I asked myself, can they have survived so many years of sameness, so much irritation at the others habits? What keeps love alive in them, when most of us seem unable to even stay together, much less love each other?

The central secret seems to be in choosing well. There is something to the claim of fundamental compatibility. Good people can create a bad relationship, even though they both dearly want the relationship to succeed. It is important to find someone with whom you can create a good relationship from the outset. Unfortunately, it is hard to see clearly in the early stages. Sexual hunger draws you to each other and colors the way you see yourselves together. It blinds you to the thousands of little things by which relationships eventually survive or fail. You need to find a way to see beyond this initial overwhelming sexual fascination. Some people choose to involve themselves sexually and ride out the most heated period of sexual attraction in order to see what is on the other side.

This can work, but it can also leave a trail of wounded hearts. Others deny the sexual side altogether in an attempt to get to know each other apart from their sexuality. But they cannot see clearly, because the presence of unfulfilled sexual desire looms so large that it keeps them from having any normal perception of what life would be like together.

The truly lucky people are the ones who manage to become long-time friends before they realize they are attracted to each other. They get to know each other’s laughs, passions, sadness, and fears. They see each other at their worst and at their best. They share time together before they get swept up into the entangling intimacy of their sexuality.

This is the ideal, but not often possible. If you fall under the spell of your sexual attraction immediately, you need to look beyond it for other keys to compatibility. One of these is laughter. Laughter tells you how much you will enjoy each other’s company over the long term.

If your laughter together is good and healthy, and not at the expense of others, then you have a healthy relationship to the world. Laughter is the child of surprise. If you can make each other laugh, you can always surprise each other. And if you can always surprise each other, you can always keep the world around you new.

Beware of a relationship in which there is no laughter. Even the most intimate relationships based only on seriousness have a tendency to turn sour. Over time, sharing a common serious viewpoint on the world tends to turn you against those who do not share the same viewpoint, and your relationship can become based on being critical together.

After laughter, look for a partner who deals with the world in a way you respect. When two people first get together, they tend to see their relationship as existing only in the space between the two of them. They find each other endlessly fascinating, and the overwhelming power of the emotions they are sharing obscures the outside world. As the relationship ages and grows, the outside world becomes important again. If your partner treats people or circumstances in a way you can’t accept, you will inevitably come to grief. Look at the way she cares for others and deals with the daily affairs of life. If that makes you love her more, your love will grow. If it does not, be careful. If you do not respect the way you each deal with the world around you, eventually the two of you will not respect each other.

Look also at how your partner confronts the mysteries of life. We live on the cusp of poetry and practicality, and the real life of the heart resides in the poetic. If one of you is deeply affected by the mystery of the unseen in life and relationships, while the other is drawn only to the literal and the practical, you must take care that the distance does not become an unbridgeable gap that leaves you each feeling isolated and misunderstood.

There are many other keys, but you must find them by yourself. We all have unchangeable parts of our hearts that we will not betray and private commitments to a vision of life that we will not deny. If you fall in love with someone who cannot nourish those inviolable parts of you, or if you cannot nourish them in her, you will find yourselves growing further apart until you live in separate worlds where you share the business of life, but never touch each other where the heart lives and dreams. From there it is only a small leap to the cataloging of petty hurts and daily failures that leaves so many couples bitter and unsatisfied with their mates.

So choose carefully and well. If you do, you will have chosen a partner with whom you can grow, and then the real miracle of marriage can take place in your hearts. I pick my words carefully when I speak of a miracle. But I think it is not too strong a word. There is a miracle in marriage. It is called transformation. Transformation is one of the most common events of nature. The seed becomes the flower. The cocoon becomes the butterfly. Winter becomes spring and love becomes a child. We never question these, because we see them around us every day. To us they are not miracles, though if we did not know them they would be impossible to believe.

Marriage is a transformation we choose to make. Our love is planted like a seed, and in time it begins to flower. We cannot know the flower that will blossom, but we can be sure that a bloom will come.

If you have chosen carefully and wisely, the bloom will be good. If you have chosen poorly or for the wrong reason, the bloom will be flawed.

We are quite willing to accept the reality of negative transformation in a marriage. It was negative transformation that always had me terrified of the bitter marriages that I feared when I was younger. It never occurred to me to question the dark miracle that transformed love into harshness and bitterness. Yet I was unable to accept the possibility that the first heat of love could be transformed into something positive that was actually deeper and more meaningful than the heat of fresh passion. All I could believe in was the power of this passion and the fear that when it cooled I would be left with something lesser and bitter.

But there is positive transformation as well. Like negative transformation, it results from a slow accretion of little things. But instead of death by a thousand blows, it is growth by a thousand touches of love. Two histories intermingle. Two separate beings, two separate presence, two separate consciousness come together and share a view of life that passes before them. They remain separate, but they also become one. There is an expansion of awareness, not a closure and a constriction, as I had once feared. This is not to say that there is not tension and there are not traps. Tension and traps are part of every choice of life, from celibate to monogamous to having multiple lovers. Each choice contains within it the lingering doubt that the road not taken somehow more fruitful and exciting, and each becomes dulled to the richness that it alone contains. But only marriage allows life to deepen and expand and be leavened by the knowledge that two have chosen, against all odds, to become one. Those who live together without marriage can know the pleasure of shared company, but there is a specific gravity in the marriage commitment that deepens that experience into something richer and more complex.

So do not fear marriage, just as you should not rush into it for the wrong reasons. It is an act of faith and it contains within it the power of transformation. If you believe in your heart that you have found someone with whom you are able to grow, if you have sufficient faith that you can resist the endless attraction of the road not taken and the partner not chosen, if you have the strength of heart to embrace the cycles and seasons that your love will experience, then you may be ready to seek the miracle that marriage offers. If not, then wait. The easy grace of a marriage well made is worth your patience. When the time comes, a thousand flowers will bloom…endlessly.